Nervous

Eat, drink, sleep. How do we do that without AMBIEN -- how do we do that at all? I am frightened. Everybody around me has confidence that either they are doing their jobs well or they will get out of here. I have neither. I don't think my work is all that exemplary, and I do not think we are ever going to escape. I am trapped in a mundane world of my own making, and I either become withdrawn or bitchy with others. It's just a life, what does it matter? But I am worried that I might say or do something irreparable, either to myself or my friends.

It is just the holidays talking, I guess